By Cheryl Hansen
Daily, as I continually take my struggles to Him, this question has been coming up for me, “If He is who He says He is . . . and if I say I believe in Him, then . . .” But more importantly, how easily do I embrace this truth?
I’ve been shaking around the lies and the half- truths in my brain and making a conscious effort to apply the TRUTH to keep me connected to Jesus and not to myself. Here are some of my more recent digs.
- I know there is a bigger picture than what I’m seeing. 1 Corinthians 13:12 “For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face; now I know in part, but then I will know fully just as I also have been fully known.” God sees the biggest picture possible! He knows ME fully and loves being face to face with me. There is no greater joy than to be fully known. So when I only see my dim view of my circumstances, it’s super comforting to know that He sees more!
- I know there’s an answer to my anxiety. Seems like I was born with eternal fear, or maybe I inherited it or maybe it just comes from my stacked up trauma. I tend to zoom in and try to figure out all of the details, to analyze them, to predict what might be coming up next, and the thing that gets me in the most trouble is trying to figure out what “I” can do to fix something. After realizing that Jesus has been right there with me in my anxiety, that He experienced ALL of it with me and He chose to be with me and not to condemn me for it, has been huge. I can receive this! John 14:27 “Peace I leave you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give to you. Do not let your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.”
- I can believe in His goodness. Sometimes there is just so much! I tune in to my teaching memories and one of my former students has serious terminal cancer at the age of 36 and has a beautiful family. A car crash claims 3 teen’s lives. I hear of another’s divorce. While taking it in, I cry out to God about unfairness, suffering and hard things and there seems to be silence. And I KNOW it means pain for Him too! Psalms 27:13 “I would have despaired unless I had believed that I would see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.”His goodness has left tracks all over my life personally and I remember! On this side of heaven, there are hard things and all of those things will be restored.
So for sure, I have been thinking about simple, not complicated Scripture to guide me, but also to shape my mindset–promises that are easy to adopt, to turn to and to renew. I do believe in Him and who He says He is, and then . . . !